Its the worst National Day ever really. I spent my whole morning sleeping, after I woke up, I eat; I shit; I napped; I teared; I cried; I wiped; I still have to face it myself, everything's still alright. I've grown up, but feelings are something that no one could control, no one. No one cares, no one knows how much I detest today. Leaving us in the house, just by going high-tea yourself, Mum. Giving us 4 bucks asking us to get ourselves something to eat, showing that you at least cared for us? I never expect, didn't expect that today would be turn out this way. Nothing turns right, but went left? If one person just provoke me, I would literally go crazy and mad at that person, really. I would usually bear with it, ignore it, don't bother about it but that's not for today. I sound so unreasonable, fussy, bossy or whatever, but I don't care. You aren't me, could you understand my feelings, my thoughts? No, because you never ever put yourself in my shoes, not even once. Here I am typing all my feelings and thoughts out, there my grandma annoying me, provoking me, by throwing tantrums like a small kid? Being unreasonable like an unreasonably old woman? Saying that I'm rude to her? Yes, my words may be harsh. But so? Elderly doesn't own everything, doesn't mean you can act like an unreasonably old woman. I can do nothing at all to help it.
Lastly, happy birthday Mizuki. And happy birthday, Singapore.